Killing My Darlings
Soundtrack: “An Eclipsing” by Stavesacre
It's taken me a while, but I had a pretty shocking revelation recently. This revelation is about responsibility mainly, but also entitlement. I realized that I need to focus on how the decisions I make in my life affect me, not how others' decisions play into my life. Because I have no control over the decisions that others make, but I sure as hell have a say in how my own decisions work for me.
In other words, I need to stop shooting myself in the foot.
It's true. I am exceptionally good at self-destruction, and I wasn't sure why up until very recently. It is because I like to make my life as difficult as possible. It's emotional masochism in a way. Part of it is fuel for my creativity (animosity breeds innovation) and part of it is because I want to overcome the challenges behaving in a self destructive way presents.
Yup, I'm fucked up.
About Me
- Toph©
- I'm Toph, and I'm an addict. I've been working off and on to finish up a degree in Graphic Design. It's fun stuff, and some day I'll have my own design studio with wood floors and brick walls in some sort of old warehouse or garage. And it will have a pool table, and I shall name it Steve. I love my friends and my family. They are all supercool people and I'd totally take a bullet for them. I love studying religion and philosophy. To me God is the ultimate big question and I am constantly searching out and learning as much as I can about the subject. I also love geek culture, especially Star Wars and video games. I've fallen in love with a girl who is more fun than a swift kick in the pants. That's a lot of fun, folks.
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